Anything that ever gets created is the result of tension seeking resolution.
So whenever you’re going for something you want in life, not only can you expect to experience Tension but it would be of concern if you didn’t.
That means being able to create the life you really love requires that you can be with Tension.
And this is where most people struggle because it often feels uncomfortable.
Here’s something that allowed me to be with my Tension:
’Suspend your need to label it’
I noticed that when I’d wake in the middle of the night with concerns in relation to what I was going for in my life I’d be ‘in it’ - there’d be an internal dialogue running its mouth off and I’d be feeling agitated.
And then I noticed something that revolutionised what had been an all-too-familiar pattern of mine (since I was a school kid dreading returning to school, in the morning, after a fun filled weekend away from the place).
I noticed that, actually, I was simply experiencing Tension - the very tension, without which, nothing gets created & with which everything I’d love is possible.
And I noticed that I was suffering.
When I sat with it for a moment what became obvious was that I had unconsciously applied my own meaning to the tension and, as a result, was ‘perceiving’ it in a way that was causing my suffering.
So notice, it wasn’t the tension that was the problem but rather what I was making it mean; labelling it - defining it.
Next, two things occurred to me:
1. I noticed that, as a result of observing what was going on, more objectively, I was no longer ‘in it’.
2. I hadn’t even realised that I was ‘in it’, until I wasn’t.
So, suspending my immediate need to make my tension ‘mean’ anything placed me in the position of Observer.
No longer was my mind racing; trying to problem solve and figure stuff out - stuff that actually had nothing to do with what I was going for (what I’d Love).
Which was all designed to see me, once again pursue another familiar, false End Result in order to distract myself away from leaning into the unknown of creating what I’d love.
I realised that, typically in that scenario, I’d be hell bent on trying to change how shitty I was feeling and baffled by how that always spiralled down, leaving me feeling even worse.
Then, as the observer, I felt calm and centred because of suspending my need to tell myself lies about what the tension meant and why I was experiencing it - NOT because my focus was on trying to change how I was feeling.
I experienced tension, in that moment for the first time because, until then, all I had been experiencing was my self-defeating, Egoic reaction to the the unfamiliar.
I noticed tension contained subtle qualities that I’d been previously too distracted experience.
I began my new relationship with tension - one of ease and collaboration.
And I no longer waste all of that time and energy buying into my own egoic perceptions about tension.
I’ve found this a most liberating awareness on my creative journey.
I hope my experience helps you to experience the subtleties of, and a new relationship with, your tension.
It’s answering the call of your heart as you go for what you love.